I´m on my bike, I feel dizzy. I look at the faces of the people I pass by, and feel that everyone stares at me. Even I feel I stare at myself. That feeling that you have, when you know that you look as awkward on the outside as you do on the inside. I get the feeling that I might loose balance, and fall down right when I bend towards the corner.
It will be fine, I tell myself, when I might clumsily tip over onto a parked car. But who cares what happens to me, I’m on my bike on my way to lunch, and no one will care how high I really am. I start pedaling on the sidewalk, and feel like if my ride would take forever. I keep pedaling, and don’t stop. I’m gliding on gravel. I feel no pain, I feel no harm, I just glide. I look up at the sky and see a crystal clean sky followed by crystal clear clouds. I know that sounds ridiculous, how could clouds look crystal clear!? -Well, they looked like clean drops of water that is, fluffy, big and clean, with shadows of gold and silver. They move slowly, and shine in the sky. The sky is blue, a solid blue, no tints, shadows, nor shades of gray. It’s just simply, blue.
I feel the wind in my arms and face, a soft and cold wind, but not any type of cold, this cold feels clean, fresh, like if I were swimming in a clear pond. This might just be the most beautiful day I’ve ever seen. It might be the last beautiful day I will see in my life. -Who knew, all I knew was that this day made me happy. I smile and breathe in deep. I stare at the clouds, I stare at the sky and keep smiling. -I felt as If I were in a dream, floating away. It was the best weather my pores had ever felt.
The soft wind caressing my body, reminds me of a certain wind I felt up in the north. In Oregon the beaches were cloudy, and the wind was soft and cold, almost refreshing if it wouldn’t have been for that foggy, rainy weather. -But that was the wind I was feeling in that moment on my bike.
I started to think in how many things we as humans feel along our life. How there are certain scents, feelings, sights that remind you of your past, and take a smile out of you. It’s so beautiful to notice how the human mind is filled with untouched memories accompanied by those senses which in one second you can have revived, wiped off, cleaned and only for you to remember. I felt as though I could die in that moment and smile. Nothing beats the revival of a specific occasion in your life.
